It is God.

Over the past few post I have written were about what I affectionately call my deep dark pit of despair. I was so overwhelmed with the support of everyone. Y’all gave me encouragement beyond measure. Verses, insights, and experiences. For that I am so thankful that everyone is so supportive to everyone else here on the blogs :)

Writing has the issue, I feel, of not conveying tone. It’s why I don’t write much, or can’t convey the right tone sometimes.

The past posts were more for an issue that I’ve been dealing with, a testimony. I read that I am kind, nice, sweet, etc. These always throw me off. I immediately think, that’s God if you felt, saw, read, received it in any good way.

It is God.

I was feeling eh, you know? Irritable, grumbling about something, open my wordpress to see how kind I am. Really?

It feels quite hypocritical to have people read your words and praise you. Especially when I keep trying to say, if you see that from any where in my vicinity, It is God.

It does make me feel Good, I feel, ok praise God with His help I am becoming the child He wants me to be. Realize that the praise from others edifies but can become about self. It’s best to point that praise into the direction it should be pointed, God :) Otherwise, it’s 1 step forward, 3 steps back, right?

Talking about my deep dark pit of despair :) isn’t a whoa is me post. It’s a testimony. It is a post of praise to the Almighty God that even in that pit. He is with me. I am lacking nothing.

If I am there, it’s because I dug it, and crawled right in there :)

But even there God is doing everything. He is in every element in my body, and all the ones that make up all that I see, smell, hear :) He is treating me like a loving Father.

Example: Tears can be streaming, the world falling apart from my viewpoint. God will put me in a situation, where I will be able to feel the breeze, hear birds singing, trees rustling. Feeling the warmth of the sun. This is one example. There are hundreds more. God is capable of the most loving acts when we are weak.

The world is crumbling, in my eyes, and God will wrap me right in all of the above, and I am blessed.

That blessing could go on forever but I am me. It doesn’t. I will be praising God’s Holy name. Then honestly, 10 minutes later I could be grumbling about something.

Again proving it is a me issue. God is there doing everything. From the physical(my heart, lungs, organs) The path He wants me to take. He has infinite patience because He knows how easily I get distracted. Plus He is doing that for every other living thing in the world.

The point of discussing it is to be honest as to where the Good comes from, and that there will be struggles. In those God is still blessing us beyond measure.

Being in that deep dark pit of despair doesn’t diminish mine or any one else’s faith. Doesn’t mean doubts are creeping in causing questions to cloud discernment. Through it all, I can open my Bible and someone is in a deep dark pit of despair. Crying, praying, talking to God about it. The verses, God’s Word, is praying for me :) Also proving to me that God knows what I am going through. It’s like He is saying, I heard you for the past hour, day, week, months, years :)

I pray it proves to others that you can be going through the worst of it, and find so much to be thankful for in our LORD.



Yet they say, The LORD shall not see, neither shall the God of Jacob regard it. — Psalms 94:7

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Understand, ye brutish among the people: and ye fools, when will ye be wise? — Psalms 94:8

He that planted the ear, shall He not hear? He that formed the eye, shall He not see? — Psalms 94:9

He that chastiseth the heathen, shall not He correct? He that teacheth man knowledge, shall not He know? — Psalms 94:10


God’s or ours?

God’s will is that I first love my brothers and sisters and I haven’t even come close to getting that in the vicinity of where I feel God wants me to be :) Which means I didn’t get to love God with all that is everything that I am. I see a pattern of me not preforming God’s will :)

He blesses me every day, and He does you too. If you can’t think of at least 12 things the Good LORD has provided you with today then you are not trying hard enough.

You could fill a semi-truck full of the blessings that God gives to all of us each day.

God doesn’t just bless me, or brother or sister so and so. He is a free giving, Almighty God.  The Eternal Fountain that is our very existence. For as much as you will praise Him. He will rain down so many blessings that you will wonder where they all are coming from.

If you read my last post or didn’t :) I have been in what I affectionately call my deep dark pit of despair. It’s not like I haven’t been here before :) I don’t expect all that is this life to be glorious.

Here, in this life, I am dealing with all of y’all. Don’t take that the wrong way. Y’all know I love you :) BUT I am quick to anger. I am not kind. The list is quite extensive.

It’s not a y’all thing. It’s a me thing :) I try real hard to be a good child of God. I pray, and talk to the LORD about it every time I have to venture out. The intentions are always “good”

Anyway, in heaven there will be none of that.

I will be in the physical prescience of God. You know where you can reach out and touch Him. Not that I would but then again He’d probably expect it from me :)

I won’t have to be fearful to leave my house because I might be the worst example of a child of God that any one has seen. None of that will exist in that life. This life being here. That life being heaven. The eternity.

I won’t be offensive. I will love everyone. I will be happy all the time. I will never be tired, sick, or sad. Neither will you. No anger felt or caused. Hurt feelings caused intentionally or not by me or anyone else. Complete trust in everything. The list could quite possibly push this into a novel :)


Every one else will feel the same way :)

Love, happiness, peace, joy, content, safe. Another few things to add to the infinite list of things to thank God for if you were still struggling coming up with that list of 12 things to be grateful for :)

The now, this temporary life is a short time. With God I can take the deep dark pits of despair.

Even in the deepest part, God was with me, and I lacked nothing. Just like God said he would do, “For the LORD thy God hath blessed thee in all the works of thy hand: He knoweth thy walking through this great wilderness: these forty years the LORD thy God hath been with thee; thou hast lacked nothing. — Deuteronomy 2:7




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For ye are yet carnal: for whereas there is among you envying, and strife, and divisions, are ye not carnal, and walk as men? — 1 Corinthians 3:3

Deep Dark Pit of Despair

Have you ever been there?

I’ve found myself in a deep dark pit of despair for about a year and a half.

Shocker. I know. But it happens. Don’t cry for me. I am not alone. The Almighty Creator of everything is my constant companion. The only One. Everyone says God didn’t promise us a rose garden.

Different variations but something to that effect.

Actually, I feel, He did.

It is within us to seize that and make it real.

Do what God wants us to do. Whatever that is.


Not always but necessary to grow and extend past here.

God is not a part time job.

He requires quite a bit.

And yet He also requires so little because He knows we aren’t capable of a lot. :)

Faith. Belief. Really very simple things to accomplish. Didn’t have to run out and fetch the first born of everything. Without blemish. Sacrifice, and all that, that entails.

No sacrifices. There was a last One.


God made it. His only begotten :)

God doesn’t play.

He really doesn’t need us. He wants us. The Creator of all that is and will ever be wants us.

He will show us over and over that it is all Him. About Him. For His glory. Praise His name from the time you wake up until the peaceful sleep He bestows on you :)

The breathe you breath while you are at it. Or is it the breath you breathe. Let me know in the comments below :)

I love God. I love that He loves me no matter what. His love is infinite. Patience the same. But that doesn’t mean there is no punishment for my actions. I would expect nothing less from any loving Father.

He is quick to anger…when I am defiant. When He is not the Center. That’s not His fault.

Those valleys are lots of time self inflicted wounds. God is leading me this way. I see something shiney or honestly think I can help the Creator of all. Then there I go off in the thickets.

I know. One day I will learn but always remain a child because of Him there is no understanding.

The Almighty LORD always has something to teach me. His teachings are from everlasting to everlasting. There is no beginning or end to the thing God can teach us.

The LORD is the only one in the equation that is in control. We are either learning, receiving revelations, blessings, or praise God all of the above.

It will  take an eternity. Therefore He created us to live for eternity.

From Adam to now. The only true thing is God. He has shown us that we need Him.

Once again proving God’s Love. Charity. Mercy. The list is infinite.

Once again proving God is everything.

He will provide. When He is the Center, and that is up to us. :)

When we praise His merciful name from sunup to sundown. Glory given, praise, confirmation of salvation through Jesus Christ. Praise God for doing for us what we were not capable of doing ourselves.

There are thousands of things to praise God for. If we can’t think of at least 12 right this minute then we are not trying hard enough. I might venture to say ungrateful comes to mind. :)

The despair might last for a moment, an hour, a day, a month, or a year. God is there.

He feels the pain we feel. The struggles, the anguish , frustrations. Again, another infinite list.

God always is on this pretty manicured path. Flowers flanking each side. I always start out fairly well. Following the LORD. Content with the nice adventure.

The next thing I know I am over as far as I can get in the ditch with mud up to my knees. All upset :) My wagon is stuck. It’s heavy too with all the things I picked up along the way on the path of good intentions, temptations, and somehow thinking I’m grown. I can do this.

But there is the LORD. Waiting on me. I am but dust. Yet, He is right there teaching, guiding, loving me every step of the way. Setting me up for glorious success.

Another thing to add to the list to thank God for today if you were struggling to get to 12  :)

That deep dark pit of despair isn’t the home God wants for us. He wants none of us to perish. Think of your children, brother, sister, cousin. You wouldn’t want one of the people you know to perish. God knows us all. God wants none of us to perish.

His love is infinitely more than we can comprehend. No one can love at His level.

He Gave His only Son. Y’all would have been on your own if that was up to me.

My only begotten? Take a second and seriously think about it. Would you do that for us?








That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God. — 1 Corinthians 2:5

Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God. — 1 Corinthians 2:12

Which things also we speak, not in the words which man’s wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual. — 1 Corinthians 2:13


For who in the heaven can be compared unto the LORD? who among the sons of the mighty can be likened unto the LORD? — Psalms 89:6

The heavens are Thine, the earth also is Thine: as for the world and the fulness thereof, Thou hast founded them. — Psalms 89:11


Now I beseech you, brethren, mark them which cause divisions and offenses contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned; and avoid them. — Romans 16:17

For they that are such serve not our Lord Jesus Christ, but their own belly; and by good words and fair speeches deceive the hearts of the simple. — Romans 16:18


Him that is weak in the faith receive ye, but not to doubtful disputations. — Romans 14:1

For one believeth that he may eat all things: another, who is weak, eateth herbs. — Romans 14:2

Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way. — Romans 14:13

Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another. — Romans 14:19